[ Axel's pocket food crimes will never be committed again!
...
Those are lies, y'all now he is about to repeat them someday. But he does give fingerguns at the backing up there, until he's asked an actual serious question. Believe it or not, it's not something he's going to answer with an idle thought. ]
Believe me, I've made a ton of mistakes myself.
But, I believe even when you've made ones that will forever remain a scar on someone else's life...you gotta do what you can. Which means making up for what you've done, even if you can't take it back.
If that person doesn't want your help, to forgive you, or you just can't do anything for them anymore because they've passed, that's just how it is. Though, I don't think it means you should have to face it all alone either. But, you do have to face it.
[ At the heart of it all, at the heart of everything, that's his own answer he's come to. ]
[ He's already been through all of that. Apologised over and over again for his screw-ups, but it's like he just keeps stumbling into them anyway. Scornful gazes and pictures of people he'll never see again, staring down at him in mockery or worse -- disappointment. ]
How do you face something like that? How do you move on?
You can face it by gathering up whatever courage you have, and letting it guide you forward. If you falter, whoever you can rely on, turn to them.
[ Axel pauses, looking in thought, recalling how many times he's apologized to Kairi, and that is just one example. But... ]
Then comes that final part. Moving on, I mean. It's easier to keep blaming yourself, especially when something is your fault. But, that just holds us back. At some point, you gotta figure that holding onto that doesn't get you anywhere.
It doesn't help anybody either.
...This is just what I think, anyway. So, hey, maybe you'll find a different way to go about it.
[ But he answered with his honest opinion because this is just what he thinks. He's not going to leave Ryuki hanging. ]
[ This honestly helps him more than Axel probably realises. ]
All I want to do is help people. It's why I went into law enforcement to begin with -- I wanted to live my brother's dream. Catch criminals, put them away. Help people find justice.
But it's like signing up help saving the world from evil people who want to fill it with darkness. Even those people deserve breathers too.
[ So in the end, Axel can't blame Ryuki, and hopes that he can get some reprieve again before getting into the rough parts inevitably again (not factoring into this situation exactly, but also yes at the same time. Life deserves to be a bit more easier for them all after this.) ]
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odoruhinokaze) wrote2023-09-19 08:05 pm
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Those are lies, y'all now he is about to repeat them someday. But he does give fingerguns at the backing up there, until he's asked an actual serious question. Believe it or not, it's not something he's going to answer with an idle thought. ]
Believe me, I've made a ton of mistakes myself.
But, I believe even when you've made ones that will forever remain a scar on someone else's life...you gotta do what you can. Which means making up for what you've done, even if you can't take it back.
If that person doesn't want your help, to forgive you, or you just can't do anything for them anymore because they've passed, that's just how it is. Though, I don't think it means you should have to face it all alone either. But, you do have to face it.
[ At the heart of it all, at the heart of everything, that's his own answer he's come to. ]
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Face it...
[ He's already been through all of that. Apologised over and over again for his screw-ups, but it's like he just keeps stumbling into them anyway. Scornful gazes and pictures of people he'll never see again, staring down at him in mockery or worse -- disappointment. ]
How do you face something like that? How do you move on?
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[ Axel pauses, looking in thought, recalling how many times he's apologized to Kairi, and that is just one example. But... ]
Then comes that final part. Moving on, I mean. It's easier to keep blaming yourself, especially when something is your fault. But, that just holds us back. At some point, you gotta figure that holding onto that doesn't get you anywhere.
It doesn't help anybody either.
...This is just what I think, anyway. So, hey, maybe you'll find a different way to go about it.
[ But he answered with his honest opinion because this is just what he thinks. He's not going to leave Ryuki hanging. ]
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All I want to do is help people. It's why I went into law enforcement to begin with -- I wanted to live my brother's dream. Catch criminals, put them away. Help people find justice.
[ Not moving on not helping anybody... ]
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...Well, people like to make light of others helping other people, but it's harder than it looks. That's why I never can knock that kind of thing.
[ Maybe in the past he might've, when he was in the Organization. Now, though? ]
So, you're running into trouble in the middle of trying to do all of those things, right?
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[ Aka he has nobody to blame but himself. ]
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But it's like signing up help saving the world from evil people who want to fill it with darkness. Even those people deserve breathers too.
[ So in the end, Axel can't blame Ryuki, and hopes that he can get some reprieve again before getting into the rough parts inevitably again (not factoring into this situation exactly, but also yes at the same time. Life deserves to be a bit more easier for them all after this.) ]